been a while... 10 months and growing, such a big girl <3
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Okay, so I *finally* have some time to update. Kathrine.. I have a ton of baby pictures of Echo but unfortunately my computer died. lol. Literally. It's gone ka-put! lol. At first it was just the internet that got disconnected, but then Echo decided to jam a floppy disk into the whaterya call er (the thing that you put the floppy disk into) and to rip out the cd rom thinger. As soon as I figure out a way to get around this little mishap and get my pictures off my computer I'll be more than happy to send you some.
Hey Jess, didn't I make a website or something of a few of Echo's really, really baby pics and I few of me? I know I did, and showed it to you. If you could remember the link I'd be estatic because I cannot remember it for the life of me. lol.
Ummm. What else? *thinks* I'm in school right now. lol. Skipping Accounting :S I don't skip classes, I really don't unless its super important and I need to be with the baby or run errands (which I try to save for after school) but Echo was really fussy yesterday and wanted a ton of attention so my huge pile of homework for that class didn't get done. Which really I should be working on as we speak considering I'm skipping that class so I can have some free time to catch up but I wanted to post first. :) I promise I'll do it soon. lol. Still have all of lunch hour, so it's all good. :P
Okay. Ryan and I. Well, things were AWESOME in the beginning. He was a huge help, and I don't know just the whole new-ness (is that a word? lol) of everything made it pure bliss. But that bliss is unfortunately fading and it's become alot more routine than I would have liked. It kinda felt like before he was my release from everything. From being a mom, from being swomped at school and work... he was just a seperate piece of happiness that I had when the rest of my world was kicking me down. But now, now he's just such a big part of that I don't feel like I have that release anymore. Does that make any sense? I enjoy the fimilarity we share with one another, it really is something and he is an amazing addition to our lives... and I will certainly not go looking for a new bliss any time soon... I guess it was just nice while it lasted. lol. We try to spend at least an hour together every night after Echo goes to bed. Just like, watching a movie or cuddling, making love *smiles* Just "us" time. And even though some nights it doesn't always go the way I'd like it to, I look forward to it alot and I know he does to. Kinda makes the hectic days seem worth while when they end happily.
School is really good. Despite the fact I'm struggling to keep up I am enjoying myself and learning alot. I believe I may be transferring schools next year. Just to get a change of pace and to take a few new courses. Ryan doesn't think I'll like it, lol becuase it is an all girls school.. but we'll see. I'm hoping I will. I really wanted to take their Child Care course. Even though I know, obviously, how to care for a child... it just peaked my curiousity. lol. Always one new thing I could learn. :)
Fortunately or unfortunatly, depending on how you look at it, I have gotten a job. Meaning, even less time with my baby girl. *sigh* I'm working Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesdays. Just enough to bring in an income... but I still want to be around ALL weekend for Echo and Ryan. And for Ryan and my Friday nights together. He always tries to get Friday night off and if he does we go out on a date. Kinda like normal people our age on a Friday night. lol. It doesn't usually happen that way though, most of the time we can't get a babysitter and end up ordering food and renting a few videos. But thats alot of fun too. :) We don't always get to do that though, because some Friday's its just impossible for him to get off work and its not like we can really afford for him to be getting rid of shifts... the more hours, the better. In a sense, not in another. Its great for us money wise, the more we work. But at the same time it's really horrible because its even less (hard to believe there could be less) free time we get to ourselves. Ahhh well, raising babies never was easy. Fortunately the summer is coming and then I'll only have one more year of school before Echo has a full time mommy. Which is when we can really start having alot of fun together because she'll be 2 then, and not quite so small. :)
March break is in 3 days? Oh my god. I am PUMPED. I *cannot* wait. Almost two whole weeks home with my little girl. *jumps up and down and dances* I'm excited. Even though I have to work a little bit, it won't be so bad because it will just be replacing the time I'd be spending in school... and then I'm free again. So it's not like any real loss. But when I have to start going to school and work again. *sigh* Oh well. What can ya do?
Hmm. By the way, I work in a shopping mall. I don't even know if I mentioned that. Again, I've gone back to retail. Which really sucks. But this time I'm working at Eclipse and theres a whole bunch of people my age working there. Plus theres always 2 people working in my store at the same time, so I'll have someone to talk to. And unlike the last job I had in retail my boss is a sweetheart. I love her to death. She understands how boring it can be in retail, but also expects alot from us within our capabilities. She started out at the same job I'm doing now, she told me, so she knows what its like. I think I'm going to really enjoy working there. Plus, I get a discount on the clothes. BOMB. My favorite clothing store is Eclipse, thats were the majority of my clothes... well, used to come from lol. Now that have a discount I can start shopping there a little bit again. <3
In any case, I have eight pages of Accounting to get caught up on. So I'll catch you all later.
Much Love,
Crystal and Echo.
PS. Thank you all for you're wonderful comments. Keep em' comin'. ;) <3